It has been a very interesting week over the christmas break.
H texted me 5 times on Tuesday before christmas all about the weather, drive carefully etc.
He then came on the Wednesday before christmas to look at the cars.
I think he is cycling again. His head is all over the place he looks pale, thin and old, even my D21 said she couldn't believe how old he looked.
H came christmas morning to bring the kids presents. I made sure that we had openened all the presents by the time he had arrived so he was a bit disappointed. He then spent time with the kids whilst I was in the kitchen. I had asked my D21 to ask him to leave his phone in the car as OW continually texts him. He never brought it in.
At times he seemed miles away whilst sitting with the children.
Anyway he gave me a card and present. Completetly knocked me side ways. I started to get emotional inside but didn't let H know. I explained that I didn't think he would buy me anything so hadn't bought him anything. He then said that he had missed my birthday and hadn't got me anything then. This is the first acknowledgement of how he behaved on my birthday as this was the first time he left and he always said it was my fault in a very angry way. I aked if I could give a a small hug to say thank you for my gift. He said of course and then gave me a very tight hug for the first time since he has been gone, which I had to pull away from eventually.
He eventually had to leave to go to OW house which she shares with her H (although they are supposedly seperated) for christmas dinner. He was very reluctant to go and hovered a lot. Even the kids noticed that as the time came closer he got more miserable.
Anyway I saw him out. As we were chatting I said to him that christmas and new year is a good time to reflect on what we want to make us happy. I thought he was going to burst into tears. He said he knew and hovered with tears in his eyes. He then said we will talk again soon. I then wished him a safe trip and came back in the house and closed the door before he had left the drive.
Yesterday he texted me and he is coming on Tuesday. He is also coming here Wednesday and the weekend to be with the kids.
Not getting to many hopes up but there are definately baby steps in the right direction at the moment.
Carrying on DBing and detaching. Haven't contacted him he knows where I am.
