Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

I positively do not think he got the necklace for me and changed his mind. Definitely to push my buttons. Whatever.

I'm working on my plans for the first half of the year, plans which do not include him. I'll be volunteering at the hospital, going to school, going to a new church, trying to find a job... I'm feeling good about these changes. I'm not caring about whether he would approve or not. Feels good. I'm finding myself. If/when he wakes up, I'll be a new person and may not want him back. I'm not doing it for those reasons, just seeing that it'll probably happen. I'm liking my freedom to be me and not care whether he approves. I'm not going to walk on eggshells anymore.