K4D It's a Wonderful Life

[25yearsmlc]

Well Kevin,

Ouch...oh sure, I could pick at you for things like you saying you felt insulted by the fudge making gift, but it really was a parental gesture ( it wasn't an insult from her) and to lighten up about the bloody lip comment and blah blah blah.

But the thing is, you are hurt b/c the gift wasn't personal, and the whole situation felt increasingly platonic to you, and was not the way a wife gives to a husband. Coupled with her words later on, some realities hit you....

So all I can say is that YES you DID do all you could this holiday. So, leave the results up to God. If the answer from your w is "no", then so be it. Maybe it's time to ask God to help you accept it, or to at least cope with it. No more listing your wants, (HE knows them!) but instead letting His will be done and letting him into your heart so you can deal better with things as they are.

You did your best; you didn't over react, and you accepted your wife's charity for what it was; a decent gesture from her. There was no vindictivness from her; nothing cruel, she simply treated you like the father of her kids and nothing else. I know that hurts and I feel really bad for you. But hey, it's an improvement. And if you can just accept things as they are now, for now, and leave the results up to God, maybe you can truly begin living your life well and seeing what life has in store for you right around the corner. NO assumptions about how great the older OM is...or how all of that will pan out perfectly or that you'll lose in every comparison--(oh and way to go with d12, putting your needs away and comforting her)...just Trust that no matter what your w has chosen, you will be alright. God will see to that if you let Him.

Sorry it all hit you the way it did. But I can understand why, and it's a tough tough time for it all to be made clear to you..I know how it hurts.
And
I know 2010 will be better for you. LET IT BE...

j-