here we go again

[Jstar]

yeah that convo went fairly well but the afterwards i don't think so. possibley he's still having trouble with his phone, this is what he claims.

he calls leaves msg with a restricted number, says he couldn't take d2 rejection thought i had something to do with it, then thought maybe she was busy with playing with xmas toys and such.

again mentions well can i come over sunday afternoon? major backsliding for me. i left 3 msgs on his vm.

basically saying, i can't do this anymore, lets just have lawyers handle it, i can't take him claiming to want his family and miss us and do absolutely nothing. i said based on his actions he is showing a man who does NOT want his family,

i told him in vm that his msgs are upsetting to me, we will pass on sunday, that it took everything in me to speak to him the past 2 times, to just leave us alone. i was not strong in my voice you could tell i was upset.

there is no change this man is going to make. he had a mc tell him what he / we needed to do and he does not make any attempt. at least by my opinion.

i'm just beginning to feel there is no other option for this unchanging situation then to divorce.

i also told him in vm that me and d2 are not a matter of convenience, he can't just say oh i think today i want to see her and be at his call whenever he may want to she her or me.

maybe if i look at it from his perspective, maybe he's not pursuing so much as to stress me, or maybe he really does not give a crap and just wants to be around when it tickles his fancy, that is what it feels like.

again me holding on to my expectations, i expect him to be doing more and he's not.