I should be divorced in about another month. STBXW will be moving out somewhere in that time frame. Dropped the bomb and me and never exlained why she is leaving me. Just "I dont love you".
There is a possibility that she may have somebody waiting for her once she moves out and or gets her divorce papers.
Here is my problem. I have always been the jealous type. Call it insecurity if you will but I did do a good job of hiding it from her for 20 years because she has always found any and all jealousy unatractive.
The PROBLEM is that I do not know what I am capable of if I find that there is in fact an OM waiting in the shadows for her. This actually scares me as I am not a violent person. But at this time I feel like an animal that has been backed up against a wall. And we all know what animals do in this situation. They bight.
She has hurt me beyond comprehension and even now likes to play little head games with me to piss me off.
Can any of you please give me any suggestions or insight as to what I can do to keep my anger and jealousy in check so that I do not do something stupid?
As sad as it is I feel like I can't trust myself in this regard.
Suggestions welcome.
Well there is not much info here...
but i would say take a vacation far away from your area... plan it out so once your divorce is final you can jump on a plane and take that vacation far far away where you can keep buisy and clear your head...
you will have to keep loose that cell, pc ect... its all about you and your healing.
then once you return you can have the mind set to just let her go.. dont think about the what ifs.. if you start to think about her stop! say stop out loud if you need to. it may sound dumb but if it takes your mind off her it worked! sorry but time will heal but you will never forget
