So, I'm turning in to my room early tonight b/c I have a bit of a headach/neck ache. I went out to kiss S and D (who are heading off to bed) good night. I told W I was hitting it early (there has actually been a little talk b/w us tonight) b/c my head hurt, and she says quickly "I was gonna ask how you were feeling." Ok, then why didn't you? But, she didn't have to say it.
I hate allowing myself to have a connection with her when I know she wants me out of her life. And it's so much easier when she isn't nice.
But, her niceness in a few simple gestures tonight have helped reduce some of my resentment. I still have my guard up. As much as I would like for today to be a good sign, I just can't let myself buy into that.
