What's working well? Time, as it goes on I find that the down moments don't last as long and that I can control moments instead of them controling me. Acting as if everything is okay, even when I disagree with what she is saying. Just got to say it a little faster when I do infact disagree, I am trying to make it a natural response until we get to a place where we can communicate more openly and honestly. Shuting up and listening to her talk, asking about her and actually listening. Making eye contact while talking with her. Being upbeat all the time, maintaining PMA. Patience, Patience, Patience. This is working but is hard. No R talk, no OM talk, no talk about her infidelity no matter what.
What communication is working? Texting, phone, in person. I prefer in person because I can tell how she is feeling and visa versa. In person is the best, b/c it lasts a little longer and I get a chance to show her my smile, also get to compliment her on her hair, clothes, looks. Try to say she "looks great" instead of she "looks beautiful" don't want to come across clingy. Cheerleading, I tell her how much I support her ideas, endeavors and accomplishments. This is one of her love languages, just figured this one out a couple of weeks ago.
Time and Place to Communicate. She is not a morning person but sometime before lunch is best b/c her meds are working the best then. I don't say that to be mean or flipant but it is true, since she has changed her meds I am starting to see my old wife come back. She used to not like coming over to the house but the last couple of times she has hung out a little bit.
As we put between us and my last backslide things seem to be getting better, I try to focus on the small positives and not speculate so much on what I preceive as negatives. Most of the time the negatives are things I dream up in my head.
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.