Well made it through Christmas in good form. So nice to have H and son watching games together and laughing. I have been cooking up a storm and trying to be as available as possible for cuddling and justsitting together. OW texted H on Christmas but he didnt text her back yet. He did text her Christmas eve to check on her and another employee who both were sick. But, he only deletes OW text messages. I have been leery of being too demanding as it is early in the R process. Also, I have major trust issues and like to be able to look to see if he is text/calling her..
The OW has a managerial role at H office and he depends on her very much to fix his computer system. I dont think the office staff knows they had/are having an A except for one front desk person I thought knew and let it slip when I had a front facing come off and didnt want my H toput it back on so she scheduled me with his partner. The OW got really sick right after my Hbroke it off with her. However, I dontthink she will leave. The economy is awful here and she makes a huge amount of money compared to what she would make anywhere else (And dummy me thought she was worth paying extra to keep and advised my H to give her extra bonuses to keep her--I guess he was doing that already!)
I think things are going well with ML and being together. It is still a little hard to talk to him. Sometimes I am sitting next to him and smiling and thinking in my head "You betrayed me with that ugly troll!" Is it normal to get more mad after they come back? He still hasnt put his wedding ring back on either but we are going to a New Years Eve party as a couple. He is moving back in stages--stays here but brings clothes over in spurts. This is such uncharted water for me--I dont know what to expect at alland it feels like walking inthe pitch black dark.
