Keep Your Hands Offa My Mojo

[hoosiermama]

I'm sorry, SP. I soooo get the "too much suck to embrace." That

hysterical weeping snotfest

is a place we've all been, every damn one of us. It has to happen, and it's sometimes the only logical response to having no control of our lives and watching it all crash and burn.

Here's the thing. You need to decide what you want to do, and go with it. You need to gain some control of your life back for your own sanity; as you described the insanity of the past year, it's all been at the whim of her need to punish you for god-knows-what. And punish she has, and taking no prisoners either. Decide what you want and do it. That's the kind of man you are--strong, intelligent, a leader. So do it. Believe it or not--she's waiting for it. Either way. But that's not your motivation. Your motivation is taking care of what you need and what Themselves need--and whichever way it goes, you all need for this suckfest to END.

I used to be a flight nurse, doing medevac in a helicopter. The very first thing they taught us is never to forget how dangerous the tail rotor is. You can't see it when it's in motion, and you get comfortable and you can forget about it and--then you get shredded. Well, SP, you keep walking into that tail rotor. You're getting shredded. Step Away from the Tail Rotor, grab the reins, and go with it.