You push, I'll pull.

[Kelly23]

I was taught to believe differently, that adultery is the the only way God does let you out of your marriage. But never in a million years did I think that I would ever even have to worry about that. Before all of this we played a big part in church. I have been back once since his first affair and had a panic attack sitting there. I have set a bad example for the kids and understand I will pay for that one day.

My husband and I did go to counseling, me individually and both of us together. We also saw the movie Fireproof but it did not seem to do any good either. With the first affair I was committed to counseling and rebuilding our marriage. After I discovered the second one, I shut myself off emotionally and promised myself that I was done. I was not going to let him hurt me again.