Those are two eloquent, moving posts. I can only imagine what the one was that you lost.
I'm really sorry for the pain you are going thru right now. I know how much the kick in the gut burns, and there's simply no way to make it go away other than to let it heal in time. It sucks.
Draw strength from your faith, and from your integrity, and from knowing you're a great dad to that precious little boy. For us fathers, it's unfathomable to imagine how God could love us so much that He would allow His Son to die for us. What a gift.
