KJ, How was your Christmas? Did H spend it with you and the girls?
Mine was overall better than expected. On Christmas Eve H actually volunteered to run a couple of last minute errands for me. He hasn't done that for months and months. And of course it was greatly appreciated (and I told him so) so I didn't have to battle the crowds with the kids. He was around the whole time and waaaaaay more involved than last year, which I found interesting. Last year (still 3 months pre bomb) he had already been detaching from me and the kids in a big way and really wasn't involved with the festivities, other than his body being there. This year he played with the kids with their gifts, participated in our traditions, etc. It was nice, though there was definitely something "missing". I also got better gifts than expected as well (and at first I felt bad I had gotten him next to nothing but then didn't - he has spent so much on himself and he threw me to the curb as well).
He chose not to come to the extended family stuff yesterday (he will not see my parents) but that was his loss. We had fun. Still, when we got home I was so sad.
In a way, I am really glad the holidays are over now, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I was dreading them but they were okay . . .
