Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

P,thanks so much for your "tough love" and honest replies! So if he brought up the D because he thought I was hurting, (which makes excellent sense) then maybe he hasn't brought it up because I have been doing fine. So he has bought himself more time. I guess what I do see is that if he wants a D, nothing will stop him from pursuing one.

My DB coach also said to change up the schedule sometimes so I think I have been doing that. Earlier when you brought up the possibility that he could be reaching out (testing the waters), I started to second guess my decision to not go with him to his mom's. But I quickly conferred with my grandma who knows about everything, and she said one rebuff like that won't stop him from wanting to return if that is what he wants. She said that if I were to say "Hell no I'm not going! &^%$! etc" then that would be different. But politely explaining I am sorry but I have to get stuff done, then it won't be pushing him toward wanting to D.

Dang, last week I wasn't scared of the D. I hate rollercoasters (the real ones) as it is!