I'm sure that the holidays are not helping in this difficult time. I too have been struggling with sadness and a black mood. If it helps you, I am about 1 year post bomb with my MLC husband. He revealed OW in december of last year. It may comfort you to know that things do get easier. With DB-ing I have seen changes in my husband, and although he is still in MLC he is so much better than last year. Try to think that if the roller coaster is going down - it does mean that it goes up again. That may help you put things in perspective.
I know there are times that are very difficult and you will think that your pain will never end. It does. Do what you can that will make yourself happy. Have a good cry, get it all out, and then think of what you can do to make things better for YOU.
I struggled so much initially, I too was the 'perfect wife' and always put my husband first. I had to work at GAL, and now everything other than my husband is pretty darn near perfect. That helps me to deal with him, knowing everything outside of him is sailing along. We all know that MLC is a waiting game, you have to find your happiness as you can. Take time with your children, they can bring you such joy, and think how sad it is that your husband isn't able to do that right now - it is his loss.
Hugs to you
Me - 38 Husband - 40 MLC! Together 12 years Married 11 years Still the love of my life Forever only lasted 10 years before his MLC and affair
