Been meaning to visit your thread here for awhile.
I understand the love/hate R with this site! Sometimes it consumes me, but it has been such a lifeline. You were part of that for me, so thank you.
I am sorry yesterday sucked for you. I am amazed at how strong the people on this site are, you included. You survived it my friend, and you continue to survive and move forward.
I hope today is better for you!
p.s. I was reading farther back on this thread, you were discussing how OM is the complete opposite of you. My H has been discussing this with his IC... how OW is the complete opposite of me in every way you can imagine. She has been talking with him about how he can find ways to meet the needs he thought she would bring into his life within his M and in other ways in his life. H is starting to get this now... I think!
Did you find an IC for yourself? I seem to recall you were looking?