Still processing Xmas.

One good thing is exh did not drink a drop. Not one. Others were drinking...wine, and he is a beer guy anyway but he didn't drink. I am sure he is working hard trying to prove he isn't an alcoholic. Now what will happen after family leaves tomorrow?

I can't remember if I posted this, but a few days ago he made a statement saying "you are going to have to trust me sometime". At the time I was talking about him being sincere and honest. I guess what I don't get is I don't trust his motives and he is expecting me to just jump in, be happy, and do whatever he wants and me to be 100% ok with it all. Yet, at the same time he isn't showing alot to ME other than a few ILY's every once in awhile. I know that is big for some, but most of the time I feel like his buddy. I just wonder if he is doing it all for baby and trying to change things or get me to allow things I normally wouldn't. Like the comment Xmas morning while waiting for baby to wake up "I do want to take her for a walk into town and get an ice cream..so what are you going to do? How are you going to handle that?" See, this is where I am torn. He has SUPERVISED visits according to the court. If I allow him to take her once or twice unsupervised then it sets a precedence that he can use against me. So Is he softening my emotions to get more unsupervised time with baby? I hate this! I don't know what is going on.

Last night after we got home from exh's family I didn't hear from him once. No goodnight. Nothing. I know he has a boatload of family staying with him and he hates that, but it just seems if you are supposed to be making an effort you would communicate.


Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!