Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Avermont, my WH spent Christmas with his OW's family. It's hard but all too common. And this week has been so hard for me, too, haven't cried in a long time and cried every day this week. This morning I got up and attempted to get the house more prepared and finish what I started (had to rearrange furniture, cook, take care of S, wrap some more presents, do another load of dishes). It really made me realize how much WH did to help.

I enlisted the help of my sisters, drove to pick them up, and they really did help out! Now I have a huge mess to clean up though. Definitely feeling alone.

But the Christmas party was fun; everyone played with S and he is worn out! He got lots of new books and clothes and toys!

So I have one more to go to-my dad's. S has 2 more to go to- my dad's and WH's mom's.

WH texted me this morning to check on S, wished us a Merry Christmas. I just replied back about S. He texted again telling us to have a good Christmas. I replied back "Thanks, we will!"
I will NOT and DID NOT wish him a Merry Christmas. Hope he noticed.

I know everyone thinks it's over between us and there is no hope. But I still have hope!