Thank you so much for your encouragement. My family unfortunately just doesn't understand as I come from a family of no divorce anywhere. They just ignore the fact that my world is crashing right now in a sense.
I try so hard to quit thinking about what's going on and most days I do well, but today was not one of them.
Something struck me today in all of this mess. We went to all of 3 counseling sessions and in the second one my husband said something that I really didn't connect the dots until today. His father left his mother for a year when he was 34 (perhaps his own MLC and his mother has never divulged all the details to her 3 sons or myself). He said to the counselor and my MIL said the same "My dad left for a year and when he came back everything was wonderful". Very sick to think this, but I feel like he's struggling to be so close to his father after his suicide that he is trying in some bizarre way to relive his life. Strange, but I think there may be something to it.
I suppose there is hope for others as well as myself that his father came back after an brief episode of insanity, however, the end of his life was very tragic.
I'll keep praying for others as well as my marriage. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their holiday.
