Going straight forward...antlers 5th thread.

[Gardener]

Merry Christmas, Antler.

(Inner) Peace,

Gardener

[antlers]

Hey man. Have a Merry Christmas. Both of our Christamses will get better from here on out. B/c we won't let it be otherwise.

Deal!

[antlers]

Take it easy on yourself.

I intend to. Thanks. You too.

[antlers]

"IF. What a powerful word. IF I had only done this or IF I hadn't done that, IF SHE only knew how sorry and how much I've changed...Then the sadness that comes along with the realization that IF doesn't matter anymore. It just doesn't unfortunately." - GIMA

Hope your having a good Christmas Antler's and GIMA too. I am getting ready to go get my d8, and checking in on folks here.

If: A powerful word. Also a false word.

"If" forces you out of the present, into the past or future. It implies that you could have changed the past. It implies that the future could be bad or good depending on some decision you have not made yet in the present.

Both false, because you know you can't change the past, nor predict the future.

I hope you all enjoy the day with your family, today in the present!

Hi man!

I understand where you're coming from. But what GIMA means, and I can relate to it, is we could have done better! Had we not done the crap we did, said the things we did, been the way we were, etc....we could have prevented (in all likelyhood) this crisis from happening in our lives...and in the lives of those we care about. Just bein' honest with ourselves.

I hope the new year is the best one you've ever had.

[antlers]

Merry Christmas, Antler.

(Inner) Peace,

Gardener

Hi Gardener. I wish you hope, healing, and peace for this new year coming up soon!

[antlers]

First Christmas with my re-defined family. It went OK. Son was thankful and happy. Daughter was sullen and unappreciative. Kids had a good Christmas though; my mother was here. We made cheese and sausage kolaches for breakfast. Kiddos spent the night with me last night and woke up at my house this Christmas morning.

They left with their mother this afternoon to go out of town to visit her parents.

Strangely, I feel OK right now...although I had some rough moments earlier today. Emotions. Gotta work hard tomorrow in a busy ER so I'll turn in early tonight. Got 2 good cats to keep me company right now.

God bless all of us.

[givingitmyall]

Glad today went well for you. Get some sleep.

[antlers]

Just got through posting on your thread! Today was OK. It's odd...11 months ago I didn't know how I was gonna get by! I really didn't know how I was gonna do any damn thing! Now, I'm here alone taking down the Christmas tree! And I'm feeling OK right now. Small steps. Over time, you realize those small steps have brought you a long ways!

[givingitmyall]

Just got through posting on your thread! Today was OK. It's odd...11 months ago I didn't know how I was gonna get by! I really didn't know how I was gonna do any damn thing! Now, I'm here alone taking down the Christmas tree! And I'm feeling OK right now. Small steps. Over time, you realize those small steps have brought you a long ways!

Exactly.

[antlers]

Well, I tried as hard as I could...but I wasn't able to save the marriage. Maybe there was too much damage done to the relationship. I don't know.

But I'm moving myself to the Surviving the Big D section of this board. I appreciate ALL of the responses that I've received since I've been here.

God bless.