Well, today was definitely a different Christmas day. Of course, after so many Christmas’s with my W I knew it was going to be sad and strange. I had plans to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas day at my mom’s place with my sis and her hubby and kids.
Last night a blizzard hit. Pretty rare for Oklahoma. I drive a little sports car. They don’t go in the white stuff – light weight, rear wheel drive. W drives a 4WD SUV so we could always get around when it snowed.
Yesterday morning the incoming snow was all over the news. I knew then it didn’t look good. My first thought was, “Oh, no. Bad enough that I’m going through my first Christmas without W and her family (who all love me, and I, them), but not even my family? No tree, or dinner, or gift exchange? This is too much.”
But I pulled it together. Found my inner peace with the situation. Hassles are not horrors. I decided to take this as an opportunity to find my inner strength and power and not let what W is doing cause me any more grief.
I had a great Christmas. Friends and family TM’d and called. And that’s what it’s really about. The people you love. W had a Christmas filled with guilt and deceit. Not me. I came out on top!!
H: 50 W: 48 Married 20 years Bomb and separation: 9/12/09 A discovered 12/02/09 http://tinyurl.com/yctnhec