I'm enjoying Christmas by myself today, and I really am enjoying the day! Last night my family got together after church and had dinner, sang carols, read Luke 2, etc. just as we do each year. While it was different without my dad and my H, it was still good and I didn't cry once. Keeping my focus on my blessings, and all we have to be thankful for seems to be helping.
Today I got up early to go skiing. Since I was going solo this year (kids are with their dad today) I brought the dog along and we had a good time singing along to the radio on the way up and back. I didn't ski very long because it was very cold with the wind chill but it was great to take a short road trip to the snow covered mountains.
I'm going to see It's Complicated tonight with a friend. The review in the paper looks good, and the previews have been funny. I'll post later how it was.
So, I've enjoyed some old traditions with family, continued the tradition of skiing today w/out my H, and will try something new later with the movie. By staying focused on the present and not dwelling on the past, I feel comforted knowing that God is with each of us today and has a wonderful future in store... just around the bend.
By staying focused on the present and not dwelling on the past, I feel comforted knowing that God is with each of us today and has a wonderful future in store... just around the bend.
That's a nice thought mnt_dreams. Thanks.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
I remebered you in my prayers because you have really had a challenging year. I am gllad to see you had a great day. Please let me know how Its Complicated is. It looks great and I wanna see it this weekend! Looking forward to your review...
Antlers, hope you are great!!
Oh, mnt, my H went off for Christmas and left me a present of the hughest, biggest, largest bottle of perfume I have ever seen. It is a very expensive brand. LOL. I can't make heads or tails of his actions and I ain't even trying honey! Did I mention that it was HUGE???
Hi Kara and Antlers - you both sound good too and thanks so much for the prayers. One day at a time and today certainly could have been a challenging day! Tomorrow will be a piece of cake!
Hard to know what's up with the gigantic bottle of perfume, Kara, but enjoy it! It beats a pair of slippers!
It's Complicated was hilarious! I liked the storyline and there are a couple scenes that are so funny, I need to see the movie again to catch some of the lines I missed because I was laughing so hard. Check it out! I give it 4 out of 5 stars.
skied on Sunday with my D16. We had a nice day and a really good talk about H. I gave her a pretty grown-up update on H and OW living together and why I haven't filed for D. She asked me how I can be so calm abt it, and I told her it's based on prayer and trying to find empathy for H. The confusion, guilt, possible bi-polar or depression issues, etc. have helped me to feel some empathy for H as if he were ill, and she seemed to understand this POV.
She sent H, her stepdad, a text Sunday night - the first in about 6 mths. Told him he was missed at Xmas and she missed skiing with him. He wrote back that he hoped she had a good Xmas and asked abt skiing. I think this is a victory b/c it softens her heart towards H. She has every reason to be upset, but if she can extend the olive branch and maybe they can rebuild some sort of R, then it's a win/win.
I talked with H today via text abt a neighbor in our cul-de-sac that died over the weekend. He fell into the water while ice fishing and froze to death. Such an awful way to go... H wanted the neighbor's address to send a card and made a little conversation via text. H seems a bit less distant.
There has been an unusual amount of death around me this year. 2 uncles, my dad, my son's best friend and now my neighbor 3 doors down. What is the lesson here..? Life is short - of course, but what else? All four left families behind that loved them, and supported them thru all the challenges. Not sure, but something to think about.
God I hope so! I agree with what you say, but let's face it...we have gone through some very painful experiences so far...and they affect a person. I know it's up to us...but you can't deny that we've been through a massive truckload of sh!t in 2009!
I hope 2010 is great for all of us. And I hope you're doin' OK.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
