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[MichelleLT]

There is no way of knowing what she is thinking.

Sometimes, she will react by being angry and more determined to proceed down the path she has chosen. Any second thoughts may not show up til later.

There is no way to know.

The more important thing is: NO expectations.

I just want to detach finally, and let go of this emotional hell she is putting me through.

You can let go of it, because you are the one putting you through it. If some stranger tried to manipulate you this way, it would have no deep emotional impact on you. The only reason that she has this impact on you is because you keep expecting her to act like the person you fell in love with, to show consideration for your feelings. While she is doing her best to prove to the world that she doesn't care.