Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

gima,

I have focused on my boys for the past week, and been trying to keep it together. They haven't seen me get emotional-besides the morning we went by the house to get S15's pillow, and another OM truck was parked outside.

I think I just need to let go of whatever she is doing, and just act as if I don't care who or how many men she goes with. It is so hard to do-letting go.

I think she sees me as weak as I took pics of the truck, etc. I think this is a sign to her that I still care-and she sees this as weak-am I right?

I dunno, I don't even know if I want to reconcile, but what I do want is for her to STOP her irrational behavior.

And, I know I can't control what she does.

-when does she get tired of doing this stuff??

She continues to act as if this is what she really wants/has always wanted-partying, going out, drinking til late at night-I just don't get it. She is hanging with people in their 20-early 30's.