Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Merry Christmas all,

had fun last night with family, woke up this morning feeling sad and depressed again. I just can't shake the thoughts of her.

Also, I am absolutely dreading the thought of dropping off my boys with her, as she is going to do or say something to hurt me.

She is having a Christmas party tonight at our home, with her "friends". She told S15 this last night, knowing he would tell me.

It just drives me crazy these thoughts.

It hurts really bad, knowing that she is doing these things, and has no regard for me or how I feel about what she is doing.