Moving on with my life!

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Here it is...5 A.M. Xmas morning and I am waiting for exh to get here. He came by a few times Xmas Eve during the day and then last night before we put her to bed. It was awesome. It was wonderful! How in the heck do I not feel something again?

I kept telling myself all night...this feeling is just because its Xmas. After that, it will be like any other day. I could tell he was feeling stuff too or he is a really good faker. He did say ILY, and I didn't say anything back. I just smiled. It was one of those really akward moments. He said "you don't love me anymore?" I said I did but he trampeled all over that. He said "I know but can't you see I am trying now. You need to trust me again sometime." There was alot I could have said right then, but just said time will tell.

So now he is coming here to be here when baby wakes up. We will open presents with my older kids and baby, have breakfast and then kids will take off for awhile with their dad's family. I will go to exsil's this afternoon.

Baby loved opening presents at my mom's last night. She got this life sized baby doll that looks so real its almost creepy! She loves it though..so many presents.

Hope everyone has a good one!