Thanks for reminding me of a basic tenent of my approach here. No matter what the outcome, I must be able to say in 5 years to my self and my kids, that I did the best I could.
That is what I was trying to say to W last night. You have a problem, I am here for you. Unfortunately, she is tuning out the real message and hearing--yeah, I have a problem--YOU. That's just the way it is right now.
You are so right about keeping a clean concious. I vow from this point to give to the good and starve out the negative feelings in myself. I will also do my best to not take the bait when my W wants to make trouble.