K4D It's a Wonderful Life

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I plan on sitting down D12 to talk to her about last night and fix that. She was actually talking about it excitedly. I know W has been building this guy up to them.

C-Bart,

My girls know the difference between S and D. They know we are not D'd and they know that W being involved with anyone is not appropriate. But as far as they know, this is just a "good friend". I see what my W is trying to do. She is trying to work him in from the friendship level first. This is thought out on her part and being put into action.

It doesn't look like W will be coming to midnight mass with us tonight as she said she doesn't think she will have time to make it. I let D7 know since D7 had really wanted her to come. Apparently W is going to some other service with a lady friend of hers and her lady friends younger sister.

Per her idea, we were supposed to talk last night and sync up on presents for the kids and she never called.

Last night her and her family went out to do their annual family Christmas dinner and her mom tried to invite the girls to which I said no. I have given them up enough this month. As I stated, the invite was not extended to me. Yet I am somehow supposed to believe there is a change of heart from W's mom which is why I am being invited tomorrow for Christmas. I truly don't buy it. Tomorrow is nothing more than her way of getting the girls over there. W said everyone drew names and is getting one gift for whoever that name is you drew. I got W's sister. I got her a gift. I asked Mel, are we expected to bring a gift for everyone. Mel said no and said that was the whole point of drawing names. But W is already buying gifts for everyone and I know that they have been also. So this is going to be me showing up with the one gift for SIL and of course gifts for the kids and me looking like a complete fool through this. I actually wasted time making 2 batches of fudge last night to take over there.

I so don't even want to go over there. I'd rather just do our Christmas morning and send W and the girls on their way to W's mom's house with SIL's present. Let them have their own Christmas and I will just go do something else.

I truly hate Christmas. It has no meaning for me personally anymore. I could do without the day and "celebrations". I could do without the whole season.

I actually thought about ending all contact with W and filing for D this morning and having her served today. That is how angry I was with the latest developments. I am so tired of this. Wouldn't that be something. A processor shows up at her door on Christmas Eve with D papers. Merry Christmas. Hope you like your gift.

That really is not the Christmas spirit though is it. The Christmas spirit is love and joy and rememberence of Christ.

W just IM'd me and asked if I was working a full day today. I didn't bother to respond. I don't feel like talking to her.

I will be working on changing my thoughts to focusing on my blessings and kids today and tomorrow and being grateful for those as well as getting ready for my Monday morning meeting.

Well, to each and all, thank you for the support and help and may each of you have a very blessed and better Merry Christmas.

Kevin