gima, I am really trying to navigate through these rough waters. I sometimes begin to feel sorry for myself, and feeling overall like a failure.
My self-esteem has really taken a beating the last 5 months, and the last 3 weeks in particular. I just don't feel good about myself, and the sitch I am in.
It just seems like she has all the power-so to speak-having the boys/house/my bike/my things etc. I just feel like I am at her mercy as far as all of that.
I have got to get my mind right, and start to heal from all of this. Not sure when that will kick in to high gear, but I hope it is soon.
Here's something to chew on. You can't wait for your happiness to kick in. One thing I had to learn is what co-dependence was. When we depend on someone else for our happiness, that's a short definition of co-dependence.
You, and you alone are responsible for your happiness. That's not your W's job, your dog's, your kids', or anyone else's. It's YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.
So, do things that help you win back your self-esteem. Get in top shape physically and mentally. Pray for strength, confidence and wisdom. Get things right in your "house."
Everyone here has an extremely bruised and batterred self-esteem, we men especially. But, you can change that by taking back responsibility for your self-esteem. Totally normal to feel what you feel right now. But you gotta keep walking through that hell. And there IS an end to it. But you can't get there standing still.
