Well, last night I tossed and turned. Couldn't get W out of my mind. This is one of the things I really wish I could get past-thinking of her.
I have my boys, I am surrounded by family, yet still think about what W is doing/who with/where etc.
W called both boys last night and told them what she got them for Christmas-had to be better than what I got them. But that is ok, my boys are with ME, not her for Christmas.
I miss her, and I feel bad for doing so.
I don't want to have any feelings for her, but I still do-really want that to stop, and soon.
TIME, brother, it takes time. We all get exactly what you're feeling right now. B/c we've all been (are) there. Painful, but it does get easier. But time, and a he!! of a lot of self motivation are necessary.
Allow yourself to have your feelings. Feelings are not right or wrong...they just ARE. Process them, then do something to clear your mind - long runs help me. Or, throw yourself into the boys.
You're doing just fine. Just keep plodding along. But, all you have to do right now is get through today. Make it as positive as you can.
