Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Well,
last night I tossed and turned. Couldn't get W out of my mind. This is one of the things I really wish I could get past-thinking of her.

I have my boys, I am surrounded by family, yet still think about what W is doing/who with/where etc.

W called both boys last night and told them what she got them for Christmas-had to be better than what I got them. But that is ok, my boys are with ME, not her for Christmas.

I miss her, and I feel bad for doing so.

I don't want to have any feelings for her, but I still do-really want that to stop, and soon.