Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Done,

Sessions requested, nicotine in the lungs, and 2 more hours til Miller time.

I knew suppressing all the bad things would not be easy, but I didn't expect it to be this bad. I stabilized. It's so easy to not think of all that happened when we're together, minus the weird way she acts with her phone, and I know why, and when I ask, she will tell me if he's contacted or not.

Either way, I am of the mindset, this is a long road to travel, and lots of time to the destination. And should we breakdown before reaching that destination, then it is what it is and I'd rather it before than after. I can however tell through her that she is terribly remorseful for all she's done.

But the moment we part, my mind starts to flutter and the un-nerving "what-if" questions start up. And that's where things have to change. Because if it doesn't I can see myself becomming a sort of control freak and bombarding her every moment she's running late or something if and when we are fully back together again, and that I will simply not tolerate of myself no matter how entitled I may be.