Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

She did not say yes. She didn't check her texts by the time I picked up the girls so I asked her personally. She said she had errands to run.

I was down about it at church, but I don't regret it. It just starts the clock over again.

Church was very empowering but my emotions kept going in two directions:

Wait out the MLC as long as it takes -- after all, as far as I can tell she has not found an OM or greener grass and the kids will always tie us together.

Or let her go and file for D myself. I actually was asking for a sign when the thought popped into my head that by holding on to her I'm holding us both back.

Could that be what my path really is?

The next three days are going to be just soooooooo hard. But then the last seven months have been very hard. I wonder what my life will be like a year from now.