((((H)))) I have just read your recent posts, & am sorry for your pain. Haven't been on here too much lately due to work. But I wanted to check in & give you my support. There are a lot of similarities in our situations, when you talk about how your H acts he sounds like mine. Right now I am having a major anger phase, but have been so busy w work it's kept my mind off it somewhat. This is a tough time of year, I too am really dreading it. Probably a blessing I have so much going on w work now.
The only thing I can tell you that may help, because it helped me was, ask your dr. about going on ADs. They might help you through this rough time. I hate taking stuff too, but you can go on them for a time, then taper off. Maybe think about it. Second, have you talked to a lawyer? A 3 page doc he just wants you to sign?? sounds a little suspect to me. H, please take it to a L to review before you sign anything.
And, I think you should listen to Pearl. I really do think she's right. Don't take what your H says to heart - if you do it will make you crazy. He's not the same, just like my H is not the same guy I married. Yes, it hurts like hell. But we cant talk to them like they are the people they used to be. It wont' work. It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with. I am here for you too, & will try to check in again soon. Hang in there H, you can do this. Please take care of yourself. (((H))))