GIMA, I wrote this long post to you.....and then deleted it (lol) b/c I was saying things that I've already said to you before. Just telling you how much I appreciate your kindness and how big I think your heart is.
In spite of all that you are going through, I pray that you will still have a peaceful Christmas, and will enjoy your friends and loved ones. I am so glad you said you'd stick around here.....b/c you have a way of making people feel special.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!