Oh Gno! What is going on?

[Gnosis]

Well, here's what I'm getting tho and is further clarified by your 'list'. Somewhere along the line in friendships, family, and especially marriages, we all take everything cumulatively an ddon't even realise it. Isolated events become no longer that, but a piece of one gigantic cross-work of amassed dislikes of the other person involved.

Dylan, you're spot on in your analysis of what I'm doing and what is happening with me.

I am INTENTIONALLY scouring my mind to build up my "laundry list." I'm poking every crevice of my mind to get to it. Dragging through thousands of memories and looking for ALL the bad. I'm actively doing this to BUILD resentment. We program our conscious minds to do what he want.

We're all human, and we all fall into that pattern. Gotta get yourself out of it (there's a bonus when you seperate it all too). This was a uneccessary event, only because it hit on a repetitve nerving it shouldn't have. I'd hate to see you throw in the towel over this, it's not right.

I hear you bro. I know you're right and I'm being hardheaded and stubborn. I KNOW I can turn this around, unfortunately I don't WANT TO anymore.

I know I'm a disappointment to all here. I've been very hesitatant to update my sitch the last few days because at this moment I'm actively ANTI-DB'ing.