1. The constant crying you mention...when I think back, I feel so stupid for doing that in front of my H all the time, in hindsight, it feels so humiliating. All the times he'd walk right by me or tell me to move out of the way and, me, standing there like an idiot with tears streaming down my face, so pathetic and crying! What a joke!
2. He always told me how lucky I was to be married to him. "You're so lucky. You won the lottery when you married me! Everyone says how great I am!"
3. With all that said, I recognize my faults and accept things I could have done differently, should have, could have, and didn't. We could have communicated better. We could have tried in a different way.
1. I did the same thing after it became clear that she was done. It was weak and pathetic. She couldn't have cared less either! I didn't know how to deal with it!
2. I did the same thing. I told her how lucky she was, and the fact is she was truly miserable. I was just trying to bolster myself up because I truly felt so inadequate. It was equally pathetic.
3. Absolutely. I have shouldered the majority of the blame, and owned what I did and how I was. Wish I knew than what I've learned since then.
There's a bunch of hurting people here, and I hope there is much hope, healing, and peace in store fo all of us.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
