here we go again

[Jstar]

yep it's pretty interesting how they can tell me how much he weights in utero. my ob asked what's up with him and i just say don't know. she says well you seem pretty fine with it and maybe i am to a certain point.

i need those skills in validating, major backsliding in our conversations. he's running for the hills at this time.

i was clear about expectations and he is not responding to it this time, i pretty much said he has two options and that im ready to move on with either one of them, probably came across as everything wrong in db. i told him he has 2 options, move back into home seperate bedrooms, committ to me this marriage these children, counseling every week, set boundaries with his parents and work each day on this marriage to repair the damage we both did, or we divorce.

with what is coming up here in 56 days, the birth of my son i need order routine and calmness. i don't need to be worry about me hurring up to get back to work so i have pay, who is going to care for lil man, rushing around to get them delievered to child care, back at work, home to take care of house dogs/cats, dinner for d2. i need peace of mind and if i'm going to do it all pretty much on my own, i need to get the plan as best as i can down now, in the unlikely event the son decides to join us prior to surgery date.

my job has to be arranged, fmla, long term sub, plans all of that and it's a lot to deal with, gonna deal with just need as many of the areas of my life taken care.