Think OW is here in my house right now!

[aflowergurlie]

I appreciate Kimmie's hard line approach to my sitch and I am sure to include a measure of that as I manuever through these next steps in the divorce.

CityGirl - You articulated perfectly my sentiments in how I am getting through this. Same process, same stance, same positive outlook, same relection on myself and how I am allowing for the first time to take care of ME and my needs. My personal growth has been tremendous as well and every day I feel this newfound strength that I never knew existed within me. With all of the emotions of sadness, grief, loneliness, depression, anxiety, fear, I am also able to counter them with telling myself "Ok, it's ok that you're feeling this way, let yourself feel it" and then it's like I'm able to pull myself right back up instead of falling into the "pit of despair" and staying there. Thanks for sharing your experiences with me. They feel like a mirrored reflection of my journey and it's nice to know someone has followed this path and not just survived, but thrived in the end of it all.

Last night - I got home from work, could tell that H had not been home during the day. Got ready and went to my church meeting for the evening. Got home from that and H was home. I was a little busy in the kitchen and H mosied on in and just stood and chatted with me for a while. Then telling me about a funny movie he saw and that I had to see. Then he said let me put it on and I'll watch it again with you. So I watched the movie in the living room and he stayed and watched it to. He was right, it was very funny. The only reason I ventured to do this last night is that I was feeling extremely strong last night. I've had my emotions back in check for the last couple days. I looked great, felt great, and was projecting my PMA fiercly. It was NOT in the context of me feeling vulnerable, needy, or pathetically affected by H's recent insanity. Anywho, after the movie I went to bed.