BIM, take your time. You're in an introspective phase and are under no obligation to share with anyone. You will know when you're ready.
And so you know, I never forgot about you. You have been in my thoughts for a while. I simply couldn't find supportive words to offer you. Your situation is extremely difficult. I wish I could find the right words to give you.
I wish you a peaceful, uneventful and rejuvenating holiday period. Look after and take care of yourself. I'll continue praying for you.