newmama, I know it's silly but i.e. for X-mas I have done 2 things I always wanted and haven't done because he didn't like it - I ordered a full turkey from the butcher, not a boned and rolled one and I have white lights on the x-mas tree instead of coloured ones. I know they are silly stupid things but it means something to me. And everytime I struggled with myself as I knew he would notice and wouldn't like it.But you know what: tough for him He says it's my house now so there you go...
