Man, it must be Christmas coming up. I just feel soooo pissed off that he is still with OW. The weird thing is that normally a year goes by and it feels like a year. Because crap was going down this time last year, I can remember so many things as if they happened a month ago. It really seems like yesterday that we were preparing for my family to come over, the lights were on the house, the tree was up...on Christmas last year he got me a digital photo picture frame. Tonight he goes to get it so I can transfer photos of our son onto it. I can't remember if I brought it up, probably. But I hope he remembers the dirty secret he was keeping when he bought it for me.Tomorrow he will transfer photos from my laptop to the memory card and set up the picture frame.
Tonight I just felt so pissed off and distant. He arrived in a good mood again. Instead of working out, I started dinner then left to go to a nearby store to pick up some stuff. I came back and continued dinner. Because my aunt came over to visit, our S didn't get his usual naps and was tired (again). So we ate dinner together and then he put him to bed. He said he likes to wait an extra 15 or 20 minutes or so to make sure he is asleep. I realized that's why he hangs out extra. I should have known.
So I need to prepare myself for the worst. I will get through this. I will be okay. The thing is, I could forgive him for betraying me but I don't know how I can forgive him for taking my son from me if we D. He will be a good dad, it's just that I could have had my son full time and could have had a family. Instead, I will see my son part time. I feel my blood boil at the thought as well as my heart implode....again.
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004