You can not really do much of anything to get positive results. All you can do at this point is make the changes in your life that you need to make for YOURSELF. Do not make changes based on thinking that it is something she would want to see. At this point you need to remember to keep the frame of mind that she may never come back, and then look at where you are and what you want different in your life to make your and your kids life better. Not what you want to hear, I know. This will be a very tough time for you, and you will most likely want to do what are going to be the wrong things. Just keep you chin up, keep a PMA going at all times, and if you need to vent, do it here. Shock