They have no idea what they want, and what all the consequences are. I am at the exact same point, even the day of the bomb is the exact same day as yours.
Be strong, you will be ok in the end. Be confident, drop the rope.
This is all things that I am struggling with also.
Affirm yourself, improve yourself and your relationship with your kids. You are the one who has to be strong for them.
Your friends will support you, all you have to do is ask them.
I will pray for you my friend.