I don't want this to be over! W texted me this afternoon, wanting to know if I was ready to tell her what's up. I haven't responded, but I want to SO BAD!! I'm in such a bad place right now. Even after everything she has done to me and my family, I still love her so deeply.
Talked to my D lawyer today, and he recommended we keep the Monday appt to get together and draw up the papers to file next week. She'd be served right before New Years.
I'm doing everything in my power go completely dark over Christmas, but I feel so weak. I know if I talk to her, she'll just feed me more lies, justifications and excuses...just to string me along.
God, this hurts so much!! How can I still have even an ounce of hope that we could work things out after everything that's gone on?! I want my wife and the mother of my son back in our lives...not the way it was, but the way it could be.
Sorry to be a blubbering mess. I'm trying to draw strength from the anger, but it keeps getting drowned out.
Me 45 WAW 36 S8 T 15 M 12 Multiple PA's since 6/07 W moved out 10/25/09 I filed D 12/29/09 Sitch
