Action undertaken today to release negative feelings: I spent some time today exploring my negative feelings. I think I am close to expurgating my anger and hurt.
Action taken today to show real giving: I then called my wife. (A bit of back story: This morning she had a bit of a rage and berated me for about 20 minutes on the phone on the pretext that I had made plans to Christmas shop without her. In fact, I had only made arrangements with SD20 to baby sit in the event we should need to do some shopping. I calmly pointed this out once. But it did no good. I then simply tried to listen and validate. This only seemed to anger her more. Anyway, I called her this afternoon. I told her I was calling for no particullar reason. (I have not done this for over six weeks.) She mentioned said she had not eaten lunch and we chatted for a few minutes. I then texted her and asked her if I could bring her some lunch. She agreed. This was an exercise in real giving. When things were "normal" in our relationsip, I would do these types of things all the time. I have always been a very attentive and considerate husband.Sometimes, I think she just didn't see me.) This time it was different though. This time, I simply did it without any expectations. She thanked me and I went about my day. The poor thing looked like she is suffering so much. God! I just wanted to hold her. But I held my expectations and wants back in an effort to practice some true giving.
