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[gutwrenching]

Sorry to hear that. I am not at that point yet where I can be that jaded. I am holding onto the dream, even though deep down I think my odds are low. yes I am too tired of how miserable every day of our marriage was. That's crap we all know it, but that is the cloud over her head couple with the raging hormones from the EA maybe PA. I know I haven't given it enough time, and I know I've been played. Now I worry about her and him going deep into secrecy to keep the EA alive. She's lied to me before about him, so why would she tell the truth now. The first time I accused her of something with the OM, she denied said they were good friends, don't drag him into it. Then she says she called him and told him everything and he wants nothing to do with it. Guess what, supposedly they've gone cold turkey cause now that I've threatened his career and his M, he wants out of this and not be in the middle. Truth or not, I don't know.
I know I've never seen my W so mean, cold, bitchy, evil. I know I've never seen her focus so little on the kids and now she tells me that she is pissed that I have become Superdad. I did stand up to that one and tell her I either became superdad or let them suffer because you haven't focused on them in a while.

I doubt my sitch will last 8 months. In june or july, we both have to move together or apart. We are either still working things or one of us has filed. We have to move across the country. My timeline is shorter, good, bad or indifferent.