Looking for Advice

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One more question - Do I openly check on the things I can. In other words, last night W left phone out, told me she took off the password, and told me to check it whenever I want. Heck, I know there is one thing I want to check - that is the yahoo instant messenger which I know W and OM were using and know what their screen names were (I don't think I told the W I know this). Or do i check more casually when she is not right there in the room?

Please keep pounding me on GAL, fabulous, etc. I have started going back to the gym. That was a good first step for me. I am lifting weights again for the first time in about 10 years. I plan on getting my body back into the condition it was in my 20s and I really don't think it'll take that long. I'm still thin and in good shape, just need to build the muscle back up.
I appreciate the support, I know I need it. I don't have much of a support network here. My W was my best friend (isn't right now, I realize that). We used to joke about being isolationists because we spent so much time together and so little time with others.

We work together, so all friends are mutual. One mutual friend (female who is much closer to her than me) knows we are having rocky times and knows W plans on leaving but I'm sure has no idea about the EA. I have considered talking to her in the past, but haven't, and probably shouldn't.

Other than that, all of our friends think things are fine and we continue to play the game and be a good "public" couple. So this forum is my only place for sanity checks, to vent, to discuss, and to get people to smack me upside the head. So thanks to every single one of you, it means a ton to me.