Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Dday, how did you ever get to this point with Xwife? I would do anything to get to the point you are at with my H.

She just cracked. Couldn't take it anymore. I try not to poke and prod her too much and let her volunteer information on where she's been, what she did and why while gone. But that's the basic gist. She felt that there was no way we could ever overcome our issues and D and a new life, HAD to be the answer.

I told her many of times, she can run (or try to) from me as much as she'd like. She can not EVER outrun her conscience. And almost each and every time I'd see her during the D and S and afterward, you could see it eating away at her.

She went so far as to try and purchase a house 90 miles away in the middle of nowhere. But, her mind was still there. The memories of the better times of our MR that far outweighed the bad were still there. The shattered look on our sons faces followed her everywhere she went.

And I lovingly (and some times not) let her go and deal with her demons. I repaired the relation with our kids that had been so damamged when I shut down during the end of the M. Basicaly, I converted from LBS, to WAS and her vice versa.

Couple that in with the latest topic at issue, our house. I put so much work and effort into that place for our family. Even tho she left it, and once I did as well, she found herself back there almost everyday. Why? And now, our house, our dream home is a few mere months within being placed on the auction block. So, I know that has been bugging away at her as well.

After reading one of M's reponses earlier, I went on a limb. (x)W and I were in another flirting round this morning going over last night, and I confessed that I really would have liked to stay with her last night. She had replied she did too. [insert some back and forth propects to and why not to ML just yet] So, I rolled the dice and asked "do you think there's ever a way we can live in our home again?", doing 2 things; 1: to see if my thought on her missing our family together was front and center on her mind, and @: If all of us returning to life in our house to try again is what's driving her to work this out despite the all difficulties involved. Her response: "for sure!"

Sorry if that's more of indepth answer than you were looking for GF.

Bottom line is we had a good M. We both lost sight of it and only saw the bad. I had no choice last night when we were talking about all this and needing second jobs to put lives back on track, but to comment: "you know, when we F-up, we do so to the fullest extent don't we?" We both agreed and shared in sigh of dispair then joy as WE WILL get through this.