Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Yes, this month is toying with my emotions big time. I'm waiting until after the holidays to file.

What I meant about thinking something would happen by now is that after 8 months, he would have tried talking to me by phone or in person, would soften his anger, would be filled with remorse or guilt and be a decent person. Any of those things. I do have the smallest glimmer of hope that H will not want to finalize the D. I don't think I want him after D. I'll move on and hope to be very happy without him. D will make it final for me.

I did explain problems to him in the M after he left. He didn't care. I feel I have the most cold WAS and hopeless case here on the boards.

Thanks for checking in with me.