Just so you know... 2

[bluerain]

Hi undefeated, thanks for stopping by my place! And thank you for saying those sweet things about me. But you know, I wouldnt have ever come as far as I have without the people and skills that I have learned here.

I know that your scared. If you werent, you would be crazy. Sometimes I am too, but where else is there to go but forward? At some point, with a lack of positive progress, you have to stop what your doing and try something different, and guess what, sometimes different is good! As far as strength of character goes- thank you. Im not sure that I think of it like that all of the time, I can name about 1000 time that I backslid and messed up, but I just had to keep going, I had to become committed to being ok- no matter what he did. You cant let his actions dictate whether you live or die.

Curling up and dying wasnt an option, and after long enough, I became soooo angry for allowing him to even put me in a position where I allowed him to make me feel like that. And even then, if you read over my old posts you know, as soon as he claimed to want to come back, I fell for it, as hard as I could.

But I still think that above all else, I took the high road, and I feel good about the choices that I made. I am proud that I fought for my marriage. He will spend a long, long time recovering from this, and I feel like I am already in that process.